My run with Cancer

So I met my July goal... running 200km in the month.  I'll be happy to getting back to running because I want to and not because I have "x" number of km left to run, but I'm glad I did it.   I also came to the conclusion that it was time to give up trying to work.  I packed up my laptop and dropped it off at the office to a security guard wearing a mask (a strange way to end one's career). It was an incredibly difficult thing to do. I probably shed more tears in coming to this decision and communicating it to my coworkers than I have since getting this latest diagnosis.  In order to stay sane I've had to tell myself that I can always go back.  Otherwise it feels very final.  That being said... I definitely think it was the right decision.  This chemo brain is no joke... although it makes for lots of laughs.  I signed up for a seminar on managing chemo brain fog... we'll see how that goes.  Hopefully I don't forget to attend LOL.  At...

I wrote this a couple of weeks ago... never posted it.  I think I felt like I had to make some tough decisions before putting these thoughts out there. But here it is.... Sitting here right now I'm feeling great physically and emotionally to be honest.  I was able to run 8km yesterday on Day 4 of a chemo treatment which is a record for me thus far.  It was purposefully slow (7min/km) but felt great!  I've decided running can almost help me stay in denial about this.  Really... if I don't feel sick, and it isn't getting in my way... it can't really be an issue right now... right?!?!  I know that this thing will eventually get me... but I also know that day isn't today, and that I have a lot of life to live between now and then.  I have a scan scheduled for July 29th to check on how the chemo is working... the goal being no new spots and ideally the existing ones shrinking.  Time will tell...  but shrinkage is on the prayer list! The part that ...